My daughter (that’s her on the left, experiencing grass for the second time in her whole little life!) just turned 7 months a few days ago, and I have a confession: I never, ever, for one minute thought that I would still look a little bit pregnant this long after having given birth.
This whole post-baby body thing has been tough to handle at times, I won’t lie. I had definitely wondered what effect pregnancy and mommyhood might have on me, having had a history of obesity and binge eating disorder. I’m grateful that BED has stayed at bay, and that I was able to handle the weight gain without body hate. But I feel pretty out of sorts in my own skin. Like someone has replaced my body with one I don’t recognize! While recovering from eating and body image issues, I had learned to trust my body…even love it. I had connected to it in a very real way, had learned how to read its signals—when I needed food, when I needed exercise, when I needed rest. And my body rewarded me by being predictable, healthy, and fairly stable with some normal fluctuations.
It has been very uncomfortable living in a body for the last seven months that looks and feels so unfamiliar. It’s partly weight, sure, but it’s also about my shape, how I must dress now (with the major still-breastfeeding knockers and jiggly mommy tummy), how my shoes fit, it’s all just so…different. I’m hoping that as the months go on, I will begin to feel more like myself—even if that means simply get more used to some of the features of this new version of my body. I’m also slowly but surely doing more self-care, things that I used to do on a regular basis for my mental and physical health, and that I know always make me feel stronger and happier, like some cardiovascular exercise (long walks in our big neighborhood park) and Pilates once a week.
I’m also reminding myself that I’m so lucky to be recovered from binge eating and body hate—and that no matter what emotional and physical challenges crop up, I have the tools and support necessary to help me get through it healthfully.
P.S. I love being a mommy!
Each day is a new one. Leave binges where they are: in the past!
Jenn is a 23 year-old recent college grad from Canada who is a recovering bulimic, but still struggles with binge eating. Today she’s here to tell us about how she deals with what to do the day after a binge. xo…Sunny
“I am so bloated from my head down to my feet.”
“I am so full. Why did I just do that?”
“It will all be okay if I subsist on only protein and veggies today and burn 2000 calories working out.”
I am embarrassed to admit that all of the above thoughts are things that I have thought after a binge and even into the next day. More
HealthyGirl.org reader Angie told me that she’s had a lot of success recently using cognitive behavioral therapy to help her get (and stay) sane about food. CBT may sound intimidating, but it’s just a style of talk therapy—one that I heard many many experts recommend when I was interviewing them for my book about binge eating. Take a look and feel free to weigh in with your thoughts about CBT, or therapy in general. xo…Sunny
Hello world. This is Angie. I am humbled that Sunny asked me to talk about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). While I have been in recovery from multiple eating disorders for 20+ years, note that I am not a licensed psychologist or medical professional. What I share here is based on my personal experience. More
I want to say a big thank you to Ashley Solomon, PsyD, a psychologist who blogs at Nourishing the Soul for writing this insightful and incredibly helpful post about exactly what to do the morning after a binge. It’s beautifully written, and cuts right to the heart of anyone who’s ever had to deal with binge eating: More
A familiar site for those of us who have had binge eating issues.
How did your food-sanity fare this holiday season? Photo by Shehan Peruma
Well, hello everyone! This is the first new HealthyGirl.org post since June when I was seven months pregnant. Thanks for being patient with the spotty contact as I readjust to life as a new mom! I have plenty to say about dealing with body image and weight issues after pregnancy, but that can wait until my next post. For today, just two days after Christmas, I want to talk about something that’s clearer to me now more than ever: there’s a big difference between eating too much and bingeing. More
Happy BookClub day! I’m so sorry for missing the last two weeks of posts (see why). But I’m here now, so let’s keep going with Food: The Good Girl’s Drug.
Chapter 2 is all about things that emotional overeaters/binge eaters tend to have in common: Eating in secret, lying about what we eat (even to the point of stealing food), eating strange food or combinations of food sometimes (especially if nothing “bad” enough is readily available). But the one common experience I want to focus on in this post is choosing food over people. More
I know the posts have been intermittent lately, and by way of explanation I can only look down at my bulging, eight-month-pregnant belly and say, “It’s all your fault, sweet little baby!” (I could also point a finger at my very busy day job. Darn you, Redbook magazine!) More
How do you label your issues with food?
Welcome to week 2 of the HealthyGirl.org BookClub featuring on my book, Food: The Good Girl’s Drug! I wanted to talk about something in Chapter 1 again today—but I promise next week we’ll move along to Chapter 2. (For those of you who haven’t had a chance to get a copy you can read most of the first chapter in these excerpts here, here and here. And if you want to get a copy of the book, you can do that here.)
What I want to talk about today is labels: How you describe your relationship with food. More
Gooooo book club!
Today’s the first day of the HealthyGirl.org BookClub featuring on my book, Food: The Good Girl’s Drug! For those of you who haven’t had a chance to get a copy (or don’t want to—hey, that’s OK), you can read most of the first chapter in these excerpts here, here and here. Just to recap, each Friday for the next several weeks, I’m going to choose one section, exercise, or journaling question from the book to focus on in the BookClub post. (If you have been reading the book and have any suggestions for particular sections or topics you’d like me to discuss here, please leave a comment or email me!)
So, at the end of each chapter of the book, I or an expert give a few journaling questions for readers to tackle. More
Today, I’m happy to welcome back HealthyGirl.org reader and contributor Erica, with a guest post. Take it away, Erica! xo…Sunny
Have you been keeping your eating issues locked away as a secret? Do you think it's time to tell someone?
Hi, ladies—long time no talk! First, I have to say how wonderful it was to attend Sunny’s book release party for Food: The Good Girl’s Drug last month! I met two wonderful girls who were also interviewed for the book, Razieh and Trish. I then went home and read half the book that night, and finished it the following day. Thank you, Sunny, for this inspirational, truly insightful read…and for making me a part of it! More