The first time I thought about the idea that one’s relationship with food reflects the relationship one has with themselves, was when I read some Geneen Roth books and listened to some of her recordings (which are really cool, by the way). I’ve found that it can be a helpful concept to come back to if you are feeling overwhelmed with trying to “figure out” this whole recovery thing and moving towards becoming more sane about food and body stuff.
If you take a peek at what’s been going on with your food and/or body behaviors and sort of put it up on an imaginary chalk board next to what’s been going on in your relationship to yourself, it could reveal something helpful in moving towards better understanding of yourself.
Example: Yesterday I felt a little bit lost in my food/eating habits. I was kind of unsure of what I wanted to eat, how hungry I was, just not exactly connecting in the best way to what my body was saying it needs. I found myself done with a meal and full and kind of wandering around thinking I needed one more thing (chocolate?).
I used this as a red flag to myself that I maybe need to sit down and take an extra look at what’s actually going on for me. Because I’ve practiced this kind of awareness before, it came to me relatively quickly that I am also feeling an overall sense of being a little bit lost in my own path in general. I am planning on moving in a few months from where I currently live, and I don’t have a specific set plan yet of what exactly I am going to be doing and all of this stuff that has been in the back of my mind has more recently come to the front. I am glad that I “caught” it early so that I can figure out a more healthy way to cope with my apprehension of the uncertain future to come!
Sometimes it frustrates me and feels unfortunate that I am wired to have things that are going on in my life manifest in my eating habits so blatantly, but then again I can re-frame it as it’s also kind of a helpful little tip to myself and I can realize that something is up or that something needs to be addressed. (Gotta find the positive in things, right?!)
How does what’s going on in your life show up in your food or body stuff? —Morgan