I don’t know if you regular HealthyGirl.org readers have noticed…but I haven’t exactly been burning up the blogosphere lately. It’s strange and sort of unsettling, but as grateful as I am to be sane about food (and as much as I love interacting with all of you) I’ve been sort of down for a few weeks. Just feeling deflated and weirdly restless.
Restlessness like this used to always push me straight into the fridge. Nothing could distract me from that gnawing feeling in my stomach like stuffing it very, very full of food. But now that food is no longer what I instinctively reach for to “fix” things, I just have to sit with it.
The funny thing is, I realized the other day that although I’ve been mired in this sense of restlessness, I haven’t really sat with it. Haven’t faced it. Nah, I’ve been trying to ignore and avoid it. Not with bingeing, but with things like TV, and reading, and work. But, hello! They may be healthier choices for me than a bag of peanut butter M&Ms, but they still don’t fix anything!
Distractions never work for long. Because (allow me a quick platitude?): You can’t run from your feelings.
I’m not sure exactly why I’m feeling this way, but I know it’s important to dedicate some time to just being quiet and sitting with it. The best way I know to do that is journaling. Something I haven’t done in quite a while. So, I’m making a pledge today to journal a few times this week. I owe it to myself, and I deserve it.
What things other than food have you guys used to distract yourself from uncomfortable feelings? And what do you do to get in touch with them? xo…Sunny