Bingeing is something most of us have done only in secret—downstairs in the kitchen when our parents were asleep, in our rooms away from our roommates, in the middle of the night, on the couch in our apartments when no one is around. So I guess it makes sense that the temptation to emotionally eat or overdo it hits many of us hardest when we find ourselves alone.
The last time I got into trouble with food was when my husband, John, was out of town. Even as someone who’s recovered from binge eating disorder, the thought still pops into my head when he’s gone. It’s automatic! I come home from work to a quiet house and my brain thinks “FOOD!” Well, he’s out of town right now—and I’ve been pretty stressed out and busy lately. So I knew this weekend was going to be a risky situation for me.
But on Friday morning, I read this quote in a little devotional book I read sometimes in the morning:
You find in solitude only what you take to it. —Juan Ramon Jimenez
Wow. Instead of taking fear and hunger into my weekend of solitude, I asked myself, what do I want it to be about? A chance to do some therapeutic writing, to enjoy being alone, to do some holiday errands, to cook something, to work on the book, spend time with girlfriends.
And that’s exactly what I did!
This time, being alone was a very good thing. (Thanks Mr. Jimenez!) What about you, do you find alone time hard in terms of overeating or bingeing?