Yesterday morning I woke up feeling…fat. Yeah, I said it: FAT.
Thing is, after all these years of recovery, I knew deep down that it had little to nothing to do with my actual body and weight at all. (I mean, how could a pair of pants that looked just fine the day before suddenly become tight and ugly?!)
It’s tough to stay in that logical place, though, when every nerve in your body, every sensation around your belly, every little piece of your reptile brain is trying to focus on the uncomfortable feeling of “bigness.”
But I knew I had to get over it if I was going to have a productive, successful and pleasant day (I’m in Vancouver for the Olympics
for Chrissake!) So, what did I do? A few things:
A stilt-lady on the streets of Yaletown in Vancouver
1. I changed into a different pair of pants. I knew the pants weren’t the problem, but I wanted to make my body feel more comfortable, to allow my brain to stop focusing on the physical.
2. I ate a healthy breakfast of oatmeal with a little peanut butter and an apple. I know that the first thing I want to do when I’m uncomfortable in my body is take myself out of it–and the default way to do that is with comfort food or overeating. So, I made a choice that was smart and healthy (but still very yummy).
3. I listened to a chakra meditation podcast
. I’m not a chakra expert or anything, but I’ve done it before, and knew that the third chakra is in your abdomen–basically right under you belly button. Connecting to my body, especially that part, seemed like it would serve to bring me back to reality.
Downtown Vancouver from the seat of a water taxi.
The good news: It worked. It’s not like I felt perfectly wonderful when it was all over, but the preoccupation with my body was over. I was able to clear my mind and focus on the day. And, it ended up being one of the most productive days of the past week! (And one of the most fun–I explored downtown Vancouver, as you can see from the pictures.)
How do you deal when you feel “fat”? What helps you snap out of it?